Sometimes it’s easier just to do nothing.
I’ve had numerous times over the last few days, and this morning in particular, where I’ve really struggled with doing nothing. By nothing, I mean either wasting time or not wanting to respond to people’s needs. Maybe you’ve been there with me before?
Take this morning for example. There’s one guy I meet from time to time who’s very hard to love. I would tell you why, but I feel like I’d be bashing him and I want to avoid that. Anyway, we talked this morning and I just had a really hard time engaging him like I should. It’s just easier to end the conversation, to give short answers, and do nothing than to really give the guy time. But I’m not called to love just the really awesome people of the world. I’m called to love everyone. So, he’s going on my prayer list but not in the way you might think. Yes, I’ll pray for him, but I’m mainly pray for my attitude towards him and that I would be open to serving him in some way.
The second part of doing nothing I’ve struggled with this morning is wasting time. I was a little tongue tied earlier and couldn’t quite figure out how to write the post I wanted to write (still haven’t!). There’s also a couple of other small tasks I’m avoiding, but it’s much easier to kill time on mindless things and I’m a pro at turning minutes into hours on the Internet.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not wallowing in guilt. I don’t think I should be. I think there’s a healthy way of recognizing when we aren’t using the time God gives us to the fullest. So I think it’s good to evaluate from time to time and ask God, “Does my life look remotely like what you want it to look like?” In the case of my morning, probably not completely, but I’m learning. And now I’m off to do some collecting!
Have you Become Last today?